breaking point

My dad always said, "Be a kid as long as you can, you have to be an adult the rest of your life."

As a kid I was in such a hurry to grow up. By the time I was ten, I was counting down the days (literally) until I was thirteen, because that seemed like the "it" age. Then the big 1-3 hit and I was counting down the days until I was sixteen...because hello, you can't drive anything other than a go-cart at thirteen. Sixteen came, and once again I was looking forward to eighteen and college. Once in college, all I wanted was to have my dream job with a cute apartment and a dog.

With college behind me and a degree in tow, I think I am qualified to say, BEING AN ADULT IS THE HARDEST AND MOST EMOTIONAL EXPERIENCE.Why? Because when crap happens, you have to act like an adult, when you really just want to ultimate punch whoever or whatever is wrecking shop on your life, right smack dab in the face (just being honest). When bills come in, you can't ask mom and dad for money. When you see a that outfit that your just dying to have, but then become overwhelmingly aware that your refrigerator is empty, and for that matter so is your stomach, the money you were going to spend on the outfit, is now being spent on bananas, Raman, and yogurt.

Now I will be honest, my post college career is in its baby stages, but this morning I broke. No need to go through all the details, but know that as I was cleaning my bathroom to take my mind off of things, I found myself on the bathroom floor.

Throughout Scripture, we read the phrase, "Be strong...". I'd like to think I have a "be strong" mentality, but sometimes even those who think they are strong minded break.

As I sat on my bathroom floor mistaking a Clorox wipe for a Kleenex, I began crying out loud:
"I don't understand God! I don't understand why it's one thing after another!"
"I know that you have a plan in all of this, I do, but right now this REALLY SUCKS, and I could use a break because I'm breaking and don't know how much longer I can hold it together."

All at once the tears stopped.

We are familiar with the phrase found in Scripture that says, "Be strong..." But we forget the next part which reads, "Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go." [Joshua 1:9]

Friend, life is hard. Life hurts and stings at times. There will be moments when you fill as though you can't catch a break, but He is with you--in the midst of the hardness, hurts, and stings, He is with you.

He says in Jeremiah 31:3, "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness." and follows this declaration with verse 25, "I will refresh the weary and satisfy the faint."

Whatever is going on in your life that has you at your breaking point, know that He is there and doesn't plan on going anywhere any time soon. He has a purpose and a plan for what is taking place in your life right now. I know it is hard to see, but take courage in the  fact that His best is yet to come and when it arrives, what a glorious day that will be!